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New journal [Mar. 21st, 2004|12:44 pm]
there are still peoples who dont know about the new journal... so please come and comment on it!


Im planning on deleting this one!
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(no subject) [Mar. 11th, 2004|10:25 pm]
Ive got a new journal
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Tastey [Mar. 7th, 2004|01:42 am]
[mood |crazycrazy]
[music |breakdown-tantric]

Taste My Sauce!Collapse )
So heres some pics. my room is still empty lol. But im working on it. So heres me adam and jo. woot. Enjoy!
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2004|03:39 pm]
X. From now on... it will be friends only... every entry. So if you don't have a livejournal... or aren't on my friends list... post me... or get a livejournal .X
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(no subject) [Feb. 29th, 2004|11:23 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |This bitter pill- Dashboard]


Walking away.
It's not the same as running.
Is it to you know that you've run in this ground.
And you say take this.
This medicine is just what you deserve.
Swallow, choke, and die.

And this bitter pill is leaving you
with such an angry mouth.
One that's void of all discretion
such an awful tearing sound.
With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare
glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair
is never wearing out.

It's wearing off
and it's leaving you with such a heavy heart
and a head to match.
The bottle is waiting
the cap is twisted begging to be used
and so are you.
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(no subject) [Feb. 29th, 2004|09:54 pm]
[mood |melancholyno good at life]
[music |Dashboard Confessional- screaming infidelities]

"Screaming Infidelities"

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I were anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.

Im living in the most depressing songs... and its well... depressing... I miss Scott.
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(no subject) [Feb. 29th, 2004|09:26 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |crash into me DMB]

It's been a long time, very long time
Since I've heard your voice
And I bet she never thought I was
So sorry so?
I've had a hard time very hard time
Seeing less of you
I never thought you knew
So can you see
You're seeing less of me darling
And your blind to the fact that my
Heart stopped beating
And I'm as good as dead

So yea... I miss Scott. I'm sick of this house... it's like cabin fever... but worse. I don't want to really talk to anyone anymore. ::sighs:: I kind of just want to throw myself into lonliness and be content by myself. people suck. I know that people are trying to help me through my "hard time" but... I dont need a pitty party. Theres so many few people who understand and who are worth talking to these days... to name a few... Scott, Tevin, Kerry, Michelle. Dont get me wrong... I LOVE EVERYONE but i dont want the attention or the pitty or anything. Yes my life is shit now without Scott... but NO I dont expect to be treated like a 4 year old who violently fell on the pavement and is bleeding from the knees.

It upset me to read Tevins entry on his dad calling him worthless because Tevin is such an amazing guy... Who can always make me smile! And he's such a kewl friend... he doesn't deserve the treatment he gets from his family!

Well I could sleep forever
but it's of her I dream
if I could sleep forever
I could forget about everything
if I could sleep forever
if I could sleep forever
if I could sleep forever

I hate life... I'm no good at it...
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(no subject) [Feb. 29th, 2004|03:34 pm]
[mood |soresore]
[music |This Time Imperfect- AFI]

so yesterday I went out to eat with my parents, grandparents, and brother... at bucca di beppo or whatever its called... it was completely overpriced and retarted! You had to pick something everyone like and share a big dish... ricks a vegetarian so you can all imagine how that went. Luckily we bought some meat too. Sorry Im a carnivore! If i dont get my meat... i start eating people.

I woke up early and went to home depot and bought paint for my room... weve done two coats already... its gonna take 2 more! Eeeep! I'll have pictures.

Everyone is in a crabby mood, my dads being an asshole ::rolls eyes:: I guess what else is new... and my mom goes he works a lot of hours thats why hes crabby... well fuck that... get a new job then. Eh!

Scott called and left me a message on my cell... I MISSED IT ::cries:: I love him so much, and I miss him more then words could tell you!
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(no subject) [Feb. 27th, 2004|07:30 pm]

Take the What's Your Song? quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.
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(no subject) [Feb. 27th, 2004|07:00 pm]
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |TV]

So when you aide in choir you see scary things... one of which is mike about to whip out his penis... instead i just whipped down the brisk bottle... you had to be there you wont get it... but we all laughed!

Being a Choir AideCollapse )
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